Tuesday, May 28, 2013

I LOVE YOU


In all the hours and days of my life... Throughout all of the moments - the ones that I would rather leave alone and the most miserable ones, I can truly say the happiest I have been were the moments we spent happiest together.
 In between what seems forgotten I find comfort in knowing he is still around.
 As if a loving ghost lurks within my mind. What I hold still is a connection that lives.
 A deep, spiritual, longing for life with him.
 My voice stays quiet but my strength at times weakens when the memories of us almost seem to wrestle my wishes.
 I know he chooses to be absent and that I respect with all my heart.
 Just have hallow hopes that he never forgets that connection that still lives. He is my love. My true and first love. 
I will always hold dear in my heart. 
To move on is an action. 
To find peace At least for my soul. 
Time thickens and days go by. We grow.
 Silence becomes more comforting.
 I do still have good days. 
Thankfully more often than not.  
I face the clock. 
I face the absence. 
I live and still.



Saturday, May 11, 2013

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because you say you are a hipster
you are not a hipster
you are a hipster
modifying clothes
drinking PBR
feeding cats
recycling
hanging out with fashion famous people
Burning down an art school
hanging out in the smokers lounge
not lending your lighter
the tightest pants you could ever wear
sea pink mermaid
life size mirror or else it's compact
snap shot of my prickling brain
random tattoos
tramp stamps
blue lipstick
pyramid shapes
third eye blind
chinese astrology
a spineless mind to match a spineless book
Gemini dragons
Moon babies born through the spirit of sound
Beavis and Butthead on rewind.
Dawson's Creek retreats
Let's go to Starbucks with my gift card
floating bookshelves of unread books
beards bitches and bubbles
withering petals from flowers
insecurities and obscurities
us


GROCERY LIST

RATS with WINGS
Birds with fins
watch blindly
space flight
transit wear
stitched statues
machine angels

UP

Oh the hours of the night
how they roar all through the night.
A victim of their awful snare,
they keep me up all through their night.
Hours, hours, horrid hours, 
creeping up amongst the flowers.
In their beds I rest awake,
Good riddance dear
I'll find a wink.